Choices

”Our lives are fashioned by our choices. First we make our choices. Then our choices make us.” ~Anne Frank~

Good evening dear ones. A lot has happened since I last created a post. Life has taken a few twists and turns over the last few months and has left me, as well as my family, emotionally drained. It has been a bit difficult to find my creative stride when there has been so much upheaval. Plus, my husband and I finally got to go on our honeymoon a few weeks ago and It feels as though we’ve been on the go ever since.

Like many of you, I have made many choices over the course of my life. When I look back at them, I can see which ones were good, and which ones were.. not so good. However, there were some that I found it was hard to determine what they were. I know that the choice to wallow in my own self pity was a bad choice. I know I let myself down, as well as my boys. I couldn’t see past my pain and I didn’t want to. I lived inside the dark place that was my head and I didn’t see any way out. Finally, I made choice. I knew I was only going through the motions of life and that was no way to live. It may sound cliche but I started reading self-help books. I also looked into books that discussed spirituality rather than religion. By making that choice I gave myself a chance to pull myself out of the hole I was in. It was a difficult road, and it has taken me many years to get where I am today. To be honest, I’m still on that road, but I am not alone on this journey. Even though there are many things I still need to work through on my own, I am surrounded by love ones willing to hold me when I need it, or give me the space to sort myself out.

Dear ones, we all make choices in our lives and although we may not know what the consequences of those choices are at the time we make them, we need to understand that there will ultimately be some. Those consequences don’t just affect us, they affect those around us too. I know a lot of what I chose over the years affected my kids and there is much of that I am incredibly sorry for. However, I will not let that put me into that dark place again, because I know what that did to my family as well as myself.

Take care of yourselves my loves and each other. Please know that you are loved and you are needed in this world. Be Kind, Be Peace, and Be Love. Yesterday is past and tomorrow isn’t promised. Live and love for today. - Live - Laugh - Love - Namaste