Don't Let the Hard Days Win

"A setback means the path you took didn't work. It DOES NOT mean all roads are closed towards your dreams, nor does it invalidate your effort. A beautiful existence blossoms from persistence." ~Dodinsky

Good morning dear ones. Over my lifetime I have had many dreams of what I wanted to do with my years on this Earth. Those dreams have changed regularly as I never really know myself or what it was I truly wanted in life. I have had plenty of setbacks and failed attempts to become what I thought I needed to be. I have a four year degree that I have never used and in debt because of it. I was impulsive and admittedly, sometimes I still am. I see something I like and think 'Hmmm maybe that's what I should do'. Then when it comes to taking the steps to making it happen I stop. Usually it was because I needed to invest money into it and I wasn't able to do so. Other times, it was because I would convince myself that I wouldn't be any good. Sometimes I think I am just too old to start something new and fall back into my same old routines of feeling lousy.

Lately life seems to be sending me into chaos. My world has taken many wonderful turns with my personal life. I have a partner to share my dreams with and I'm looking forward to saying 'I do' in a few months. We have shared so many adventures already and I can't wait to see what the future holds for us. Conversely, my professional life has been completely shut down. I am at a loss as to what to do right now and I am feeling like I'm letting down those I love. I have spent years taking care of my family financially and to suddenly not be able to do that has hit me incredibly hard. There are days that knowing I have to rely on others for my financial needs feels like a kick in the teeth and I feel like a burden. It hurts more than I ever thought it would.

I know I will come back stronger than ever, and I will find my purpose in life. It just may take longer than I thought it would to do so. I refuse to let the hard days win. My loves, please be good to yourselves and each other. Remember that a bad day, doesn't mean a bad life. Take heart in knowing that sunshine is coming your way and spread kindness wherever you go. Today I will leave you with one more quote. I may not know what my full potential is, but this quote resonates with what I feel part of my purpose in life is - Live - Laugh - Love - Namaste

"To be honest, my goal is really just to have a positive impact on everyone I meet, whether it's a smile, a laugh, or a changed heart." ~Unknown~