Heart of Darkness

"Until we slay the monsters in ourselves, we will keep trying to slay them in the outer world. For all darkness in the world stems from darkness in the heart. And it is there we must do our work." ~Marianne Williamson~

Good evening dear ones. Over the last few months I have realized a few things about myself. I have discovered that I am afraid. I am fearful of what the future brings for me and my family. I have found that I am feeling things on a much deeper level than before, and I am affected in ways I never would have expected. Never before had I been one to hide away or have problems being social. However, nowadays I find that I would rather be alone and away from crowds, and people in general. The overall feeling of those crowds is oppressive, and difficult to be around.

If I am to be honest with myself, and I usually try to be, this change has been happening over several years. I have tried convincing myself that I am numb, and that I have lost hope in the inhabitants of this planet we are on. I have tried wishing my emotions away, and telling myself that I would rather not feel anything than the pain that hits me on a regular basis. One thing I do know for sure, is that I have been fighting a darkness that tries its best to pull me to its level.

Lately I have come to understand that fighting the darkness is like fighting a part of yourself. I have also figured out that darkness isn't always bad, and light isn't always were the truth lies. I have my demons, and I am working hard to accept those demons for what they are, my life lessons. So my darlings, for those of you who are trying to slay your monsters and defeat your demons, I am proud of you. Keep it up, I know you can do it. If fighting them hasn't worked, try talking to them and finding out what it is they are trying to teach you. Kill them with kindness (Yes I know it's rather cliche but you might be surprised).

Take heart my loves, stay strong, and live your beautiful life as you see fit. You are warriors! Never let a day go by without telling your loved ones how you feel. Be Kind, Be Peace, and Be Love. Life is far too short for anything else. Giving thanks for unknown blessings already on their way. Yesterday is past and tomorrow isn't promised. Live and love for today. - Live - Laugh - Love - Namaste