Hide and Seek

"To love yourself as you are is a miracle, and to seek yourself is to have found yourself, for now. And now is all we have, and love is who we are." ~Anne Lamott~

Good evening dear ones. When I was young I looked for approval from those that I called friends. I sought to be liked by everyone, be popular and in-demand. I allowed others to define my worth and gave their opinions of me so much weight I made myself sick. Those opinions may not carry the weight they used to, but there are times my mind still tries to convince me they were right. I have spent years building a vocabulary of internal dialogue that dilutes the poisonous words they used. I wish I could say that I am perfectly fine now and nothing gets past my shield of positivity. However, I'd be lying and doing myself a great disservice.

I am still learning to accept that the road to happiness is a continuous path and there is no end. It is a constant choice that needs to be made and I don't always have the energy to make it. There are times where I need to embrace the darkness within, sit with it, and understand where it is coming from. Lately I've felt the pull to go deep within and seek out the shadow self. I have ignored her. I have refused to acknowledge that part of myself and accept that she is a part of me. She has remained hidden for long enough.

My loves, I know it is difficult to accept certain parts of ourselves, but if we don't at least acknowledge them they will come to the surface when you least expect it. Give those hidden pieces of you some light and embrace them. Be good to yourselves and each other dear ones. Love every bit of who you are. I hope you receive all that you deserve. Be Kind, Be Peace, and Be Love. Yesterday is past and tomorrow isn't promised. Live and love for today. ~ Live ~ Laugh ~ Love ~ Namaste